Before I begin, I want to start — and later on I will also end my writing with hers too — by borrowing Nessi Gomes's words about being woman and being vulnerable and being powerful and being sincere and being truthful: "Our vulnerability, especially as a woman, it's our super…

Perhaps the commemoration of Isra Mi'raj has passed in two days. It was on Monday, February 28th, 2022 or Rajab 27, 1443 Hijri. But I believe there's always new lesson learned to be taken and understood to renew and re-nourish my soul. Since I wrote my book "A Map to…

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"I said this to myself since few days ago: Stay another hour, please… Once I can make it, I try to extend another hour. And again. And again." I guess this is the gentlest and most compassionate mechanism I can do for myself so far to ask the suicidal ghost…

"Hide aways, they say, because we don't want your broken parts. I've learned to be ashamed of all my scars. Run away, they say, no one'll love as you are. But I won't let them break me down to dust. I know that there's a place for us." (Keala Settle) Whenever May approaches and almost knocks my door, I feel the wound of huge void within my soul. I lost a teacher — not just in term of academic, but also life — nine year ago, 19th of May, 2012. His name is Sulaiman Abdulmanan. That date is a day…

"The girl whose mind got educated, her horizon got wider, she no longer can live within her ancestor's world." (Kartini) — (Translated from Kartini in Indonesian: "Gadis yang pikirannya sudah dicerdaskan, pemandangannya sudah diperluas, tidak akan sanggup lagi hidup di dalam dunia nenek moyangnya.") There is this scene in my…

“The idiot thinks everyone is an idiot except [her]/him.” (Ryūnosuke Akutagawa) Rooting, grounding, and watering like my devil ivy plant in a glass jar two and three days ago. I know I deserved and always deserve that kind of proper pause. My mind was and is attentively listening to Kahlil…

"When (human) meets an obstacle (s)/he can't destroy, (s)/he destroys (her)/himself." (Ryszard Kapuściński in his book "The Other") I used to like reading English books that translated to Indonesian when I was not really confident with my English capacity as a foreign learner. Anyway, Ryszard Kapuściński was a Polish. He's…

"It was terrifying to love someone (something) that was forbidden to you." (Cassandra Clare) The intolerant, the extremist, the fundamentalist, the fanatic, the radicalized, the terrorist, etc are not always the poor, the fool, and the ugly ones. Look at the case of 911. The perpetrators were engineers: smart, rich…